A short introduction of myself before I start my story. I am a 20-year old girl who madly fell in love with an infantry soldier a couple of weeks ago. I knew him for a couple of months and he was always there if i needed someone to speak to. I never thought there would be more than friendship. But he was there for me, every single day. After a couple of weeks, I knew him better than anyone else. And what I knew from the first day was that he is deploying to Afghanistan at some point in September.
Well, so far the background. What date is it today? It's a nice, sunny Sunday. "A beautiful day", how C. would call it. I bet it is a relaxing day for most of you. What day is it for me? Well, it is the day i was afraid for for two months. It is "D-Day", how many army wives and girlfriends call it. The day when my lovely soldier has to deploy for six months.
This day made me struggle so much. Can I make it? Will I get through it? Well, you can't decide who you fall in love with. And he took away my heart. So I have to go through it. I don't know how yet, but I will.
We had some awesome weeks together. We shared many memories. We laughed together. And we cried together while speaking about him going away. We had some special last hours together. He painted me a picture to remind me of him whilst he is away. And then I took him back to his camp in the early morning of this sunny Sunday, because they made him work on his last day in Germany. It was the most heart-breaking thing I've ever done. I wasn't meant to cry, but I just couldn't help it. "I'll be back before you know it", that is the sentence he told me about a hundred times the last days. Back before I know it? I wish it was that way. He hasn't even left yet.
Just people in the same situation know how daunting it really is. Do you know what it feels like having a broken heart inside your chest? Because your other half is going into a war. Do you know what the last kiss feels like? The very last hug? The very very last glance at each other? My God. I never felt like that before. I can't even describe this feeling.
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